Dearest Aliya

Hi! the last time i wrote a love letter for someone is, like 7-8 years ago for certain someone (YOU), and now i'm gonna try to write one, but, digitally.... my lazy bum ass don't think i can write all this physically, so i'll just write it here

School medical room 8 years ago was the first time i saw you with your wavy hair, beautiful skin, and the gummy smile. I thought to myself that you're pretty and cute, and even though i dont know anything about you aside from the physical appearance, from that moment on, i'm determined to make you mine.

At that moment, i had no idea it was the start of something amazing, a decision that makes my dull, colorless, and boring life to be a life thats worth struggling for.

After a while, i did make you mine, but it didnt last long, we broke up during graduation because im not strong enough to handle your emotional trauma. In that moment, I felt as though a heavy burden had been lifted from my shoulders, but little did I realize, I had unknowingly left a deep emptiness in my heart, an emptiness that no one can fill.

No one has ever loved me like you do. i can feel your love and care in every touch, every word, and it just fills me with warmth i never felt before. Your love is real, and thats why, after two years, I found the courage to try again, to be with you once more, but this time, with a heart full of resolve, i promise you, i will never give you a reason to regret forgiving me for my past mistakes. I will spend every day of my life making you the happiest woman in the world, and I will cherish you like youve always deserved.

The first year of our new relationship is the hardest, we were always fighting because we still dont know about each other, and probably we dont even know ourselves too. But i just can't stop loving you, even though fighting with you always hurts, the thought that i can see your smile and laugh is enough to keep me going.

And im glad i did that. Right now, i feel like im the luckiest person in the world. You're absolutely dazzling in any clothes you wear and you're cute with or without make up, such a perfect beauty. Your skin is as soft as a pillow, and your giggle is the sweetest sound i could ever hear. You're kinder than anyone i've met, you understand me so well, you care so much about me, what is there to not to be grateful for? I already have a complete package and that is you, and everyday with you is a reminder of how blessed i am to have you.

Whenever you asked me, "why do you love me, do?" i answered with all the beautiful qualities you posses, which is true, but if you started asking "but what if i'm no longer like that?" i know the answer now: i don't care , its because nothing has ever felt more real, you are the place for me to rest, the one i reach for in the dark of times. Loving you is not a choice, its a truth ive already embraced. Its a love thats eternal and beyond anything i could ever put into words.

I wish for you to always be at my side, through the good and bad. I want to start my day by seeing your smiling face, and end my day by caressing you to sleep. I want us to build a happy family with our children. I want to be with you, at every moment, every second.

I believe the world is full of beautiful coincidence, its a coincidence that i took a 2 year break from school, a coincidence that we both enter SMAN 66, and its a coincidence that we met at the medical room that time. But looking back, all those moments, those coincidences, led me to you. And for that, im the luckiest person alive. Each twist of fate has brought me closer to you, and im beyond grateful to be walking this journey with you, through every moment that led us here.

Thank you for making the world a MUCH better place for me, sayang!